I rarely actually dream about the girls I like, don't know why. Last night, however, I had a dream about one that just recently closed all possible doors I could have found. It was innocent enough. I was going to see her at her driving school and she "confessed" her love to me. Afterwards, I went on a skiing trip and forgot my skiing clothes (I don't have any). When I was with her in the dream, I quite literally pinched myself twice because I thought I was dreaming.
I didn't wake up when I pinched myself. I wish I had never woken up from that, it would have been perfect. For the first time in my life, I would have gotten something that I really wanted, right from the top of my list; I won't get her, though, and now I just need to worry about accepting it. I need to keep her as a friend; I need to keep her off my mind.